A Confession and an Apology

To my dedicated readers,

I have to make a correction from last week’s blog post entitled, “Why Is No One Saying Anything About My Mixtape?” wherein I confronted my fans' silence surrounding the mixtape I worked so hard to produce and gift to the public (for free!)

After I reviewed your numerous comments, you all bring up not only a good point, but a correct point. It isn’t fun having to make corrections in your own personal blog, especially because I started this to document my life, mistakes AND all. It turns out, though, that unfortunately you all were right and it looks like I never actually made a mixtape. What I thought was months of writing lyrics, nights spent in the recording studio, and an impressive final product of my life’s most poetic moments encompassed on a single tape, turned out to just be me blogging about the mixtape. That’s right, I never made it, I just wrote about it so passionately online that I convinced myself I had actually put in the hard work it takes to produce an album.

Yes, I’m a little embarrassed about this oversight, but I think instead of focusing on not creating a musical masterpiece, we can all reread the dozens of posts of how I would have. Are you familiar with OJ Simpson's book, “If I Did It”? Of course I’m NOT comparing myself to OJ Simpson, we are VERY different (he has murdered someone and is black) but we are both humans who are asking you to stretch your imagination past it's comfort level. For just a moment, imagine that I did put in the work to create a music mixtape and that you've listened to it and that you love it. The lyrics hit a place in your heart the reminds you of your childhood, the good parts and the not so good parts. What's actually wonderful about having not actually made this mixtape, is that you can envision the perfect mixtape with zero flaws and I get to call it mine. If you can, conceptualize the album art. You're probably wondering, how does a CD sleeve look so hip yet classic, tantalizing yet comforting? And the truth is, I don't know because I never made the mixtape. 

So, yes, I am sorry. But I also don't want to get bogged down in the details of what has and hasn't happened. I'm actually only sorry that you will never hear my mixtape and never experience just how perfect it is. And I'm also sorry that you're so concerned with "reality" that you can't congratulate me on my mixtape, something I've worked endlessly on. To quote a line from Emily Bronte, one I would have used in one of my tracks, "Proud people breed sad sorrows for themselves." I hope that you, my readers, can look past your ego and give compliments where compliments are due. 

I'll be taking a week off from blogging to visit my son at his babysitter's house and will hopefully have time to cool down from this whole misunderstanding. 

xx

kr